To Loved OR To Be Loved??

Dulu, sewaktu zaman skola aku mmg syok giler,tangkap cintan abis dgn si A. Sampaikan sume geng2 aku pun asik cuci mata n bg sepenuh perhatian kat si A. I wish he'll be mine one day. Bila balik skola je, mesti saja sibuk2 nak jalan blkg si A.

Maybe ada jodoh time tu. Nak dijadikan cerita mcm drama2 tv, my cousin-Syira and I went to Plaza Masalam a.k.a Plaza Shah Alam. Dah tak ingat dah watpe kat tmpt yg sumpah haram jadah bosan nak mati tu. Lepas park keta kat luar, we all pun nak masok la dlm Plaza tu, ikut pintu tepi dekat ngn Speedy Video. Its double swing panel door, dan aku pun menolak pintu yang sebelah kiri. At the same time, pintu sebelah kanan ditolak oleh seorang jejaka dr dlm.

Punya la luas pintu tu,boleh plak nak langgar aku. Mmg kurang ajar. Start la nak naik angin. Tetapi selepas melihat wajah jejaka itu, terus terkedu. Waaahhhh...betul ke ape yang aku lihat ini. Si A la.........OMG OMG!! PANIC ATTACKED!!

Then,
A: Eyh, I think I know you. Sape nama you ye??.
Me: Owh..Lina. (teruja)
A: I selalu nampak you, tapi selalu tak sempat nak tegur.
Me: Owh really?? I tak perasan la pulak. (Statement palsu)
A: Eyh, I got to go. Can I have your phone number?? Dah lama nak minta.

And I was like...'WHAT???DAH LAMA NAK MINTA??'

Me: Ya sure. 0123.....bla2.
A: Orite,thx. I'll call ya.

Then my cousin said 'OMG...he is so damn hot. Mana you kenal? OMG OMG!!'

Si A was my crush when I was in high school. During the night, tunggu la dia call. Tak call2 pun. Bikin panassssssss je. Elok time nak tido, he called. Huwaaaaaa...gumbira nya. Bla3...mls nak cite terlalu pjg.

We've been together for almost 1 year but we broke up due to my personal problems. Takde gaduh pape pun but aku xleh nak bg komitmen dgn byknya mslh2 yg ada. But we remain as friends. Good friends. Both of us stay single for almost 2 years. 1year 10months kalau nak ikutkan tempoh sebenar2nya.

Eventhough dua2 single, we still like a couple. He spent too much money and aku rasa tak selesa. 5days ago, he sent me a message and says, 'Nape you cakap cmtu. Jgn cmni yang..I tak kisah pun.Nnt kita kawin pun tu dah memang tanggungjawab I'.

Is this what we called LOVE?? or it is just a sympathy? are we meant for each other? There are a lot of questions in my mind. Is he really sincere? Should I accept him back? or should I choose another guy?

Big Q's..Adalah kita perlu bersama dengan orang yang mencintai kita ATAU orang yang kita cintai?? Dua2 ada pros and cons.

Kalau kita bersama org yang mencintai kita, mungkin hati kita kurang gembira kerana kita mencintai orang lain.

Kalau kita bersama org yang kita cintai, belum tentu org itu dpt membalas cinta kita.

Haish...walau apa pun keputusan, kita perlu berdoa kerana yang baik semuanya datang dari-Nya.


at Kadir's Tomyam - 12 May 2009

p/s: Cerita diatas tu tetiba teringat. Datang terus dari hati.

Biasa la suke mencarut dan mengarut.

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